I simply can’t believe that I am again typing this post. As many of you know my husband and I have struggled with fertility since we got married in March 2008. We were lucky to get pregnant this past December, but lost the baby on New Year’s Day. This summer we started the IVF process. It is a long, stressful, mind & body consuming process. We were ecstatic to find out that it worked the first time and we were pregnant. However, we were completely devastated to learn this past week that we lost the baby. This entire time I’ve been asking myself “why? why?” Even though I know it is not our job to ask why things happen to us. Then, I ran across a wonderful message that said to not ask why, but to ask what. What can I learn from this? What maturity am I gaining from this? This seemed to help because I related it to our profession. We are constantly asking what questions about our students and teaching methods. We take that knowledge and grow because of it. I know in time all off of this will help me grow, but right now in the moment it is almost unbearable.
I just wanted to let you know what is going as I am feeling extremely guilty about letting the book study slide among other things here on my blog.